So long.. For so long...

For so long I've hid the real me. Not me, but ME!!! I've been afraid to express myself & chose not to communicate out of fear that I'd be hurt. See hurt is all I've known for a long time. It has led me directly into a trap of failure. Constant failure. I've got nothing to lose at this point. Giving 100% of myself is my only option. I mean giving until I can't give anymore. Love waits. Prosperity awaits. Peace awaits. Greatness is waiting. It's my turn to experience what I've never experienced. Happiness!! Real unadulterated happiness. The happiness that God designed for me to have when I was born! I forgive myself for allowing past hurt to keep me in bondage. I forgive those who hurt me because little did they know they broke my spirit so that God would get glory & I'd draw closer to Him!! Now is the time. My twelve o'clock is here. It's just no longer night. I'm ready to walk with a clear vision into the light!!

My Father... He's working on it!

Ahhh!!! That's how I feel! I want to scream! Funny how the enemy works. When I think something is completely out of my system then he steps in & reminds me. The pain is renewed. This time I won't allow it. I've moved beyond hurt & I'm angry. I'm allowing myself to be angry. When I'm angry things change! So when he crept in with his nonsense this time, I reminded him of what the word says, I took it to God. Why not? He's my father right? As a child our first instinct is to go to our parents to make everything okay, so that's what I did. Like a father... He'll make everything okay!

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“ Isn’t it fortunate how selective our recollections usually are. ” — Malcolm Forbes

Letter To The Hearts Pt 2 by Rob Hill Sr

Ran into this today... Love!!!!

QOTD

“ There is an old saying, The harder you try the luckier you get. I kind of like that definition of luck. ” — Gerald Ford

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“ Whether zeal or moderation be the point we aim at, let us keep fire out of the one, and frost out of the other. ” — Joseph Addison

In the morning...

I'm sitting here with a song stuck in my head this morning. I can't stop singing... It'll be all over, In the Morning!! I've heard that song a number of times in my life but this is the first time it's stuck with me. Last night I spent some real time with God. Placing every little thing that concerns me at His feet. Man oh man... In the morning! The song says, 'Ain't no need in worrying, what the night is gonna bring, cause it'll be all over in the morning.' Truer words have never been spoken. Something about placing your all at the feet of the One who knows you best. I'm so refreshed! Feel a thousand pounds lighter. When I said Amen, as tears were rolling down my face, I knew that it was over. Funny thing is, the tears weren't sadness but they were tears of joy. I'm full of joy because I KNOW that He hears & I know that He cares! God is so awesome! He steps in right when we need Him. If He doesn't just step in, we can step to Him at any moment & it's like no one else in the world exists but you & Him. It's as if heaven & earth is at a stand still as you command it's attention. Talk to Him folks! He's listening & He cares!

Have you ever...

Not sure what a young Brandy knew about this but...

Keep waking up

Tomorrow is not promised... This is true! I have faith in tomorrow though. I have to. During the darkest moments in my life, I take it one day at a time. My mantra is to keep waking up! I trust in God. Sometimes I tend to put too much faith in people. I trust them to be who they tell me they are. This isn't always the case though. Through it all, I call on THE ONE who NEVER leaves!! I don't have all these answers in life & this life that I live is good. I try to make an effort & focus on ALL the goodness around me. When I do that, things tend to get better. So... Tomorrow I go through the process of waking up again. I've allowed myself a week to stay in this place & I don't plan to revisit this place again. The love inside of me for people won't allow it! I will awaken tomorrow with a smile & leave the past behind me.

Focus Focus Focus!!!

Today I make the biggest step thus far, in my life & I can't focus!! My mind is simply all over the place.